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On the weekend, a friend of mine indicated that I may, in fact, be intimidating. Not only was I somewhat shocked to hear this from one person, but was reeaaaalllllly shocked to have a few other people confirm this "intimidating" status.

To grasp this whole idea a little more, I asked the husband if he thought I was intimidating. His response: "I don't know.... you're a little intense".

Okay, intense I can handle. The husband then explained that I'm just a bit intense when things are good and bad. Okay, that I can also handle because, well, I am a little intense. But is that the same as intimidating??

I was honestly shocked to hear this. Why? Because I am, in fact, shy. Now I know what you're all thinking... well, those of you who "know" me. NTQ, you are not shy. You're loud, kind of obnoxious, and quite frankly, annoying half the time. But no, really, I'm shy. And awkward. You put me in a group of people I don't know, I won't know what to say. And in order to not trip all over my words, I just stay pretty quiet.

I think the reason I do this is because I know I'm loud, kind of obnoxious and quite frankly, annoying half the time. I would prefer not to be (well, loud I can handle, the rest isn't that great), so I prefer to stay quiet until people decide they like me...... then I becoming annoying.

So, if you're reading this, and know me in real life, please know that I'm not. I'm actually shy and don't know what to say most of the time. Please talk to me..... I promise, I won't be mean! And I am now making it my New Years Resolution to not be intimidating! Whoot! Go me!