what's your favourite colour?

hello friends and loved ones,

we have two things to cover today. lets cut the chit chat and get started.

1) tokyo police club AND two door cinema club show
saturday finally rolled around and the husband and a friend hopped in the car, hit the 401/403/QEW/etc. to find ourselves at kool haus. slightly earlier than these "old" (read: 26 to 29 year olds) folks would like to arrive, however, this provided us a chance to get in, get a much desired area to watch PS I Love You open the show. we then braved the scary teenage world of the concert floor and found ourselves a nice little nook with some other friends at the show. tdcc came on first and rocked our fucking socks off. i kid you not. they were high energy musical geniuses on saturday night. i loved loved loved them. tokyo police club came out (opening with favourite colour, which happens to be one of my favourite songs at the moment), and also put on a fabulous show. i hate to say that tpc was outshined a bit by tdcc, but it's a true story.

now, moving on to more of a blog post than the earlier outlining of "what i did this past weekend".

2) i love myself. a lot.
alright.... without meaning to coincide with the beginning of the new year (see my earlier rant about the ridiculousness of new years resolutions), i seem to have "turned over a new leaf". it's been coming for awhile, but for some reason, is seeming to work this time. as you may know from my earlier post on the topic, i "suffer" from an anxiety disorder that requires me to take two medium sized pills each morning. in an effort to not be taking these each morning, i've dropped myself down to one medium and one small each day. whoot. (a little more technical than that, but who cares, right? right).

i've also taken up my old hobby of running, and actually look forward to running every day! days i don't run (because i dont have time/access to a treadmill), i've started doing other workouts. it's kind of weird, but i love it! of course, i've started eating better and i'm taking a mindful meditation course that i'm in love with.

the point of this little blog: i love myself right now a lot. and i've started putting me first always. i never understood when Oprah (everything in life i've learned, i've learned on Oprah - seriously) would say "you've got to put yourself first". i would think "how do you not put yourself first?". it's your life, obviously you're first.

i'll tell you how you don't put yourself first. you let the rest of the world over run you to the point that you consciously decide at the end of the day that it's better to order a pizza and sit on the couch to relax instead of going for a run and making something half decent to eat.

you let work get so busy and rely on you so much that you're too stressed out to even think about anything besides and therefore forget about yourself.

you think that the easiest person to let down is yourself. you think you don't have to deal with the consequences like you would if you were letting down your boss, husband, wife, family, etc. but you will eventually.

so i am putting myself first. and i love it. i feel good. i feel better than i did when i thought was giving myself totally to other people. it's kind of cool.


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side note: "you think that the easiest person to let down is yourself" should seriously go on motivational t-shirts, mugs, coasters, signs, etc. fuck - i'm on fire today!